Terima Kasih....

this entry i just want to thank for those who r concerned about me.... i really appreciate it.... i nvr thought that theres many people out there that do really care about me.... thanx for ur time n ur kindness... but as i mentioned in my previous post (entry: KOSONG), ill only share the tell the real thing to my mother only... im sorry guys if i didnt share to u what my prob is... i know what u guys want is for me to be happy n u guys dont want me to suffer n carry the heavy burden alone.... so, once again, tanx but no tanx...

anyway, i got a comment from anonymous on that entry... well, anonymous, i think u should at least leave ur nick name cos its hard to address u as anonymous (keep on slh eja). Ur comment i think has deep meaning... ill try to figure it out.... but thanx anyway for ur concerned...

so, what im trying to post in this entry is just to tell u guys that:

insyaAllah ive a strong inner will like my mother hv...

ill keep my head cool n be patience slagi bole...

ill try not to think about it too much....

i know what is my main reason to be here in Moscow...

i know what is more inportant....

so, dont worry about my study....

insyaAllah it will not be affected....

but, ive a ques here to Anonymous....

do i hv to sacrifice in order to achieve something???

eventhough it only hurt me n people around me???

if i hv to sacrifice it, then that means we have to lose something in order to gain something???

isnt it unfair if other people gain everything without sacrifice anything...

n lastly, r u sure kalo sy sacrifice, bende yg kiter arap kan akan berada dlm genggaman???

pls correct me if im wrong....

lastly, kpd mereka yg phm psl entry KOSONG sy tu, i guess ive to make a sacrifice... a big one... biarlah masa yg menetukan k... insyaAllah we'll meet someday.... ill nvr forget about THE PROMISES....

Sayang Dyer :-)

Alhamdulillah... just finish my dinner... i ate rice with chicken soup.... time msk tu sibuk sgt skype ngan kakak smpi terbakar kain kat stove tu... huhuhu... anyway, today same routine... i played violin (lagu jiwang2 :-P ) then msk n baring... i missed my meow2 sooo much... ni nk citer ckit psl meow2 sy... chumel sgt..

LELLEN

this is Lellen... sy dh luper camner sy dpt dyer... yg sy ingat yg dyer kecik lg time sy bela dyer... dyer x reti minum air cara kucing dewasa... sntiasa tersedak... nk mam pon x reti... sian sgt... terseksa dyer... cam nk nangis pon ade gak sbb sian sgt.... the most sad is it suddenly disseapear dr umah kitorg... i thought my mom dh buang dyer kat bus stop... then after a few days, my brother-in-law found it in my nephew bag, DEAD, with many shirts inside the bag.... :'( that time i really angry with my nephew but what can i do... eventhough i scold him Lellen already dead, so his father buried it near our house....

PUTOYOY

This is putoyoy... this pic was taken when tgn dyer sakit time tu... sy bela dyer time sy dok sec 24 then moved to sec 10 n to Kg Melayu Subang.. yeah.. sy bela dyer since kecik lg... then biler dh pindh subg, a few days after that dyer ilang secara tetibe... maybe dyer sesat kat subg tu sbb dyer x familiar... i think it still there in KMS tp the sad part it doesnt recognised me anymore... everytime i try to approach it, it will run away :'(

SONAM

this is sonam... hmm.. actually this is not my cat... this my sister cat kat sec 24... this pic was taken after it recovered from accident... after the accident my sister said that it face very terrible... it didnt want to eat anything... it sit alone in the porch... but now, it already fully recovered... bery montel... suker sgt cubit pipi dyer :-D

TEH ANDUNG

This is teh andung... well we call it Teh cos it is putih n andung because it mengandung... NOT!!! it does not pregnant but it looks like one... perut dyer mmg sntiase bsr camtu kot... berbulan2 lamer nyer kitorg tugu tuk anak nyer kuar, tp x kuar2 pon...huhuhuhu... actually this is not my cat... dyer dtg umah just nk tunjukkan kecomelan dyer kat sy jer... tp slalu dyer dtg maybe mengharap kitorg bela dyer kot... tp ati kitorg x terbuka lg utk bela kucing that time... tp suddenly muncul Tino La Ni, trus ati kitorg terbuakak utk bela si Tino ni... ape lg, mengamuk lah Si Teh Andung... abes dyer keje kan Tino since dua2 betina... last2 Teh Andung give up n dyer x dtg umah kitorg lg utk tunjukkn kemontelan dyer... kdg2 jer sy nmpk dyer atas bumbung umah dok sorg2 smbil memandang bintang dan mengenang nasib :-p lupe nk bg tau... si Teh Andung ni ade skandal... namer dyer Wambi...

WAMBI

This is Wambi... well obviously i named it cos dyer cam suami kpd Teh Andung... hmm tp btol ke suami ek??? sbb Teh Andung ni suke jual mahal n wambi ni lak low self esteem... so, x tau ah camner kisah cinta diorg... tp ngomelan Wambi mmg paling comel :-p

TINO LA NI

This is Tino La Ni... dyer btol2 x cumel actually tp ntah camner ati kitorg terbukak utk trima dyer n x trima Teh Andung... so this proved that sy x judged meow but its appearence :-p Tino ni really cam kucing kampung... really innocent... sgt bertentangan ngan sikap Teh Andung... last2 dyer ngandung ade kucing jantan maner tah ngandung kan dyer pastu x nk bertanggungjawab... tp time tu Tino kecik lg... x baper reti jg anak dyer... then masuk pseekor kucing jantan kat umah kitorg n bunuh ana2 Tino :'( time tu Tino deppressed sgt... sbb anak kesygn dyer dua2 mati dibunuh...

Tino ngan 3 ekor anak dyer : Tino Jr, Itam n Khell

then after a few months, dyer andung lg.... n berjaya melahirkan 3 kittens yg teramat cumel... seekor dyer lahirkan sblh sy time sy tido (sy terpegang tembuni dyer time tu trus terjg n prasan ade darah2), seekor lg dyer lahirkan kat bawah katil kat bilik kakak n lg seekor lg dlm kotak...

Tino ni mmg typical kucing kampung yg x berpengatahuan... dyer x tau langsung psl jg anak... tp motherly instinct dyer kuat, so dyer ajar ah anak2 dyer maner yg patut... n dyer sgt protective... everytime sy culik anak dyer msti dyer isau n marah kat sy :-p

Khell

the sad part is a few weeks sy kat Moscow ni, mak decided utk buang dyer n 2 anak dyer :'-( so tinggal seekor jer skarang kat umah... namer dyer Khell... slalu kalo sy skype call kakak kat umah msti nk tgk Khell... cpt sgt dyer membesar... dulu kecik jer... makin macho dyer :-p

ngomelan Wambi

Kisah Chenta Teh Andung n Wambi

p/s: sy pon nk kasih syg gak leh x??? :-p

Penat....

Today sy wat2 diri jd bz so that i dont think about 'that' stuff... so, i practice my violin since morning till late evening.... then, i watched 2 muviis...


the first muvii that i watched is The Clash of The Titans... citer dyer psl god2 time zaman2 dulu kat rom camtu ah... psl Zeus, Athena, n lain2 goddess... so the Zeus's son Parmeasus (x tau eja) kene fulfill his destiny that is to save Andromeda... so bnyk ah challanges dyer.... dyer kene berdepan ngan Medussa, Giant Scorpion, Kraken n others...

ni oldies nyer muvii... so graphic dyer hmmm ok lah bg zaman dulu2... tp kiter tgk skarang like fu*k :-P tp terok2 camner pon muvii tu ade gak ah wat sy suspens n terpranjat tgk muker menakutkan titans tu...

So, the second muvii that i watched was The Addams Family Values... ni pon citer lamer gak... so basically this story about the presence a new baby in the Addams family... so, they hired a nanny to take care the baby since his elder brother n sister keep trying to kill him... cos they said that if theres a new baby in the house, one of them must die... ni cier klakar act... so in the mean time, the nanny actually a psycho who seduced rich guy then kill him on the night they married... so, this nanny seduced Fester n they got married... so, kalo nk tau aper jd kat Fester tu, tgk2 lah sndiri ah camner citer dyer...

so, after i watched this muvii, i took a bath n watch 3 episodes of pokemon series.... then busu came to my room n we chit chatting a bit... n lastly dpt pon alihkan perhatian dr pkir yg bkn2... rase nyer berjaya kot... rase nyer lah kot.... now just want to rest on my bed n plok slimut... yeay... tu jer yg wat sy happy skarang... plok slimut n byg kan sy plok meow2 or is it rimau sy??? hehehe....

nite2 everybody... esok nk g jenjln ah... kalo vos still sakit, so sy g sorg2 jer ah... tgk lah camner esok...

KOSONG.....

why i chose it to be like that???

why its gone???

or maybe i just lied to myself???

then, why i chose to lie???

why it happened to me???

arghhh!!!

hate myself!!!

hv nobody to trust anymore...

mak, only u I trust....

cos ur love is infinite...

u will nvr lie to me....

mak...

i really need u now...

cos i cannot bear it alone....

only u i want to tell what its all about...

cos i know....

that u ill always there by my side....

Kanak-kanak Rebina

Future Doctors

Hanna
Najmi Najwa

Najla

Kimi, Hani, Maryam
Arief

Ayu

Ahmad

Ariel

this morning, i woke up at 7.30 n bersiap2 to go to self-claim medical conference (actually lecture bese jer). since im really bored sitting at this komnata (room), so, i decided to go to that conference... its about peadiatric... the lec was given by Dr. Shan Ong... he's a Consultant Developmental Paediatrician in Sydney but actually he's a Malaysian... so, the lec is about

"EARLY DEVELOPMENTAL WARNING SIGNS IN YOUNG INFANT AND YOUNG CHILDREN"

yeah... sound boring rite?? mmg boring pon.. tp since i hv nothing to do... so, bende yg boring pon nmpk x boring :-P

anyway... back to the lec... so basically he explained about normal behaviour, behaviour prob, causes, developmental assessment n .... erkk nguap dah ker bace bende ni?? ok2... i know is boring... ill skip this part.. so let me share what i know about this little creature call kids... since ive 11 nieces n nephews all together which thier age below 6, so ive exp with the kids...

firstly what i want to type is i really missed my nieces n nephews... that lec open my heart to be more gentle towards them n be more patience... to tell the truth i cant stand them... well maybe that time i was a normal teenager... slalu nk memberontak n marah... but, i guess im still able to manage my anger properly back then...

i know they r very cute... but that fact can only be used when they sit properly n mind their own business... but when they start to cry... ur eardrum starts to vibrate vigorously n their high pitch voice can even make supersonic wave... seriously... well, they just a kid... we r the adults (tgh pasan jd org dewasa ni) dh pandai pikir dah... so, wat per nk marah2... we're not like small kids who cannot think wisely... all the kids want is just an attention... so, give them attention... simple rite?? hahhaa... not that simple i know... cos we also hv our own things to do... i understand.... but i want to say is just, pls love them... x yah ah guner violence to punish them... there r many other ways to teach them a lesson if they did sumthing wrong...

tp jgn luper, the adult oso want to be love, hug, attention n nk mnja2 from the one he loves :-P so sayangilah adult gak :-P

The Blind Side

wahhhh... its hv been a while i didnt update my blog... really bz :-P huhuhu... not really... actually theres nothing to update cos if update my blog, it would sound like this.... today woke up, mndi, on9, bekfes, violin, mam, tido.... thats all...huhuhu... yeah, a very boring life to have...

ok back to the point...actually i just watched a muvii entitled THE BLIND SIDE.. well actually sumone recommend to watch it.. since im really bored in this room (not alone anymore cos Sherman dh blk from Egypt) i decided to download it (which only took about 15 min for a 700MB muvii)


so the story is basically like this:
kisah seorg mamat african-american yg homeless di adopted oleh satu kuarga ni smpi dyer berjaya jd pemain rugby terkenal ah... tu ah lebey kurg nyer... nk tau lebey lnjut tgk ah sndiri...

well, for me this story really touched my heart.. hmm.. i guess it will touch anyone heart (melain kat org tu x der ati or is it jantung?? hmm pe pe jer ah). very motivated story... n what i like about this movii is about persoalan tntg kasih syg...


hmmm... ckp psl kasih syg, msti tears akan bergenang kat mata ni... haishhh... be strong k Ajiz!! well, basically ive nothing else to write... i mean type... just want to take a bath after this (yes i take bath late at night) n want head to bed... my eyes cannot take it any longer... bertmbh cepet ah sy ni :-P


k... nite2 everyone...

daadaa sem 1 ....

so, its hv been 4 months im here... many things ive learned in here... n still a lot more to learn... actually technicall my 1st sem already finished a week ago, but due to my anatomy lecturer always bz, my group hv to extend our class.. so, basically, we finished our class just this friday... so 3 weeks winter break only lef 2 weeks only... poor us :-(

anyway, still glad that ive pass this sem with no prob.. i even got automatic 5 for my Philosophy exam which is the highest mark... alhamdulillah.. syukur sgt2 :-)

so, next sem is where my nigtmare officially begin.. i still remember when i was doing my foundation in MSU, s alam, my bio lec said that my true nightmare will officially started when i learn about something related to metabolism (its about biochemistry) we learned n hv to memorised the phosporylation of pyruvate.. then kreb cycle... haishh.... at that time only Allah know how that thing can make me go cray (still sane here :-P)

well, such a relieve that things hv passed but with a poor result on my exam.. score B+ only for my Bio... well that time im still not used to Uni exam system... so, my first sem result during foundation not so great... n thats the reason i cant score 3.8 n above.. just got 3.79 :-P hmmm... let bygone be bygone... sumer perkara ade hikmah nyer :-)

anyway, got 2 more weeks for my holiday b4 i start my 2nd sem... so, in 2nd sem, ill learn these subjects... hope i can do well in my kontrol, colloq n not to forget my exam... pls doa2kan lah yer supaya sy dpt wat yg terbaik n everything goes smoothly :-)

1) russian language

2) latin language

3) philosophy

4) History of medicine

5) biology

6) anatomy

7) histology

8) chemistry

9) mathematics n physics

10) physical training

hope can excell in all above subject n can go back malaysia with all 5... insyaAllah.. will do my best... :-)