Sudden Expression...

its 12 midnight...

just watched a few episodes of Glee...

but lately,

i've been questioning myself...

what is it like to love someone besides our family??

is it like we always thinking about them??

is it like we always feel happy everytime we are with them??

is it like we will keep on missing them eventhough we just met a few hours ago...

or even a minutes ago...

everything that we see through them is like they are perfect in every ways...

i know that nobody in this world is perfect...

but what makes them perfect is us...

and what makes us become perfect is because of them...

so is this a chemistry that people always bragging about???

that we fit each other???

it feels good you know when someone really appreciate us...

and accept us for what we really are...

we got pimples, but they never see it in a bad way...

we are not outstanding in a crowd or popular, but they don't mind it because they like us for what we really are...

they won't try to change us for what we are now...

but of course, if it is a change in a good way, why not change...

when both of us can benefit from that change...

so, what is it like??

my life is not like any other teenagers' life...

i've never been in a relationship before...

well, i did like a girl when i was in high school...

but that was 4 years ago...

is this a puppy love??

but i still remember,

that time,

after school,

i always saw her in a place where we parked out motorcycles...

yeah i rode scooter whan i was in form 5...

but im too shy to have a conversation with her...

everytime i met her, i just smile...

n she did too...

well, i'm just a kid that time..

yup...

physically, mentally n emotionally...

im too timid of myself...

im a bookworm type...

a nerdy...

who am i to catch her heart...

low confidence always strikes me...

untill now...

hmmm...

now i'm studying medicine...

i don't know why i'm being so low self-esteem...

i got the knowledge...

i'm more superior than most of the guys of my age...

yeah in some aspect...

so, when someone really likes me, what should i do???

i dont want to be labelled as desperate or what-so-ever in here...

but it feels nice though...

to have someone really care about us...

hmmm...

i wonder...

if i'll hv a real relationship...